sometimes alone is best

maybe i should be afraid of this but i have discovered that i can shut down and throw away a friendship if i feel deeply wronged in anyway. i think after things happened in chicago i am alot less forgiving of slights and rejection. if i feel like something that is important to me is belittled or that i am laughed at because i am upset for being belittled, i shut down. i am finding it is much easier for me just to be alone. i don't have to figure out other people's feelings and i don't have to discuss mine. i don't have to worry so much about rejection. until i come to a place of stability and peace inside myself, i think i will just be alone.