Significant Memory

today a very significant memory came to me. it has been the "script" by which i have been living my life for years. this "script" was developed when i was in the second grade and i realise now that 7 was a very significant age for me. i made a lot of life decisions around that time and i have been living with them ever since. wierd for me to be saying that now as an adult but truthfully, when do we start adopting roles and behaviors? we start when we are children. i am really sleepy at the moment so i am too lazy to share the details. i will probably write more about it tomorrow.

i want so badly to share this with him but i can't because it would only make him feel like i am not leaving him alone and i said i would. this is what i would have told him had we still been talking.