What to Say

When alot is on my mind I don't write often and I have had alot on my mind lately. I think it will take me days to write it all out. All of the options before me. All of the things that seem realistic but maybe are the easy road. I have to stop fighting the voice in me that longs to talk with God. I am waking up early these days because all within me is restless. I have so much to do that I do nothing. I miss my friends in Korea. I wish I had a car so that I could visit my friends here. I wish I could dance. My legs ache these days. Before the dance there was poetry. When I felt strong and fearless I knew my voice, my rhythm and flow. Now, I feel timid, unsure, and my voice a whisper sounds a shout in my head.