Got the Time to Write!!

Now that I have time on my hands it seems I want to write. I have this weird thing. I don't do things like writing or watching tv when I know that I don't have the time to really pay attention. I have down time in small spurts but i choose not to do anything that would require me to focus.

This weekend is going to be a busy one with my brother, sister, the man I am building with, and friends are staying. I need to clean the house, buy food, and make beds. I am also teaching a four hour dance workshop Saturday and hosting a party Saturday night. CRAZINESS!!!

Sunday I will drive to Charlotte so that I can visit the school district office there and drop off my paperwork.

Today I figured something out that I think is really important. I want to be able to recognize when I am acting out of fear. The emotion still sneaks up on me. My friend and I were talking and he said something that pressed a sensitive button. I didn't realize at the time that this is what happened. There was a mixture of fear on my part but also wanted to make sure he was clear on a very important topic. One that would directly effect me. This was the first time in my life that I ever asked this of anyone I really care for. Although there was that assurance I needed, I also realized today that there was fear involved too. Any decisions made with even a tinge of fear are not the best decisions. I have learned this the hard way. So, it has become very important for me to be able to recognize when buttons are pushed and bring up fear. Another opportunity to grow.