being vague

i am contemplating something that is both scary and potentially irresponsible, depending upon how i budget money and time. i have been taking stock of my life. why i have been so unhappy this past year. what it is that i feel i need to do to fill the needs of my soul. i recently started reading a newly translated book of Baha'u'llah's Writings..."The Tabernacle of Unity". it is a very short book and i finished reading it pretty quickly but it is full of much needed "soul food". it is a book that i go back to every morning on my ride to work. i am also reading another book which is helping me to put things together spiritually, "The Anatomy of the Spirit"...both of these books together are starting a reawakening inside me.

after carrying alot of poison from a devestating breakup almost 6 years ago now i feel like i am starting to really come out on the other side. as a result, i am looking at everything a bit differently. i am going to have to take some chances to see where my heart is leading me and for most people, including myself, it is going to be a hard thing to understand because i will be following my heart and not the cardinal things a 30 something "should" have accomplished by now.

i know i am not mentioning much and i won't until i have a solid plan and know that i will be making some definit decisions. in the mean time, i will be consulting with friends and family to help me make a plan that i will not regret in the end.