A Ray of Hope

the one thing about aging into your 30's and being single has to do with children. i have always wanted to have children. it seems that the road my life is taking will not allow for marriage for quite some time. some have told me to adopt. well i have always wanted to adopt also and that is something i will do after i am married. i watched my mom raise 5 children alone, i know it can be done but there is definitly something lacking when there is no strong, healthy male role model. i think it would be selfish of me to adopt a child when i am not married.

since it has become clear that marriage will not be happening for a little while yet i was getting worried about having children later in age. then i watched Oprah. there was a woman on the show being interviewed about something completely seperate from this topic. in the course of the interview the woman talked about the fact that she and her husband had had two more children...one when she was 48 and another when she was 50. i have heard all kinds of facts that having children that late poses many possible problems.

i don't know that i will be single that long but i am not holding my breath. i am quite happy in my singleness and now that i know i can have healthy children even if i am older, i am cool with waiting until somebody comes along who will add to the happiness.